I know that moving back here to the east coast has been extremely difficult for me and that
this plays a toll on my health on all levels. I am trying to turn my attitude around and live in the day counting my blessings. I am trying to get my mind to want to be here….thinking that not accepting being here and being in grief will not support my well being. I don’t want to be a pouty kid. And yet, I can not ignore this part of me that is saying …I DON’T WANT TO BE HERE. I am trying to understand what led up to this decsion and how it could have felt right at the time and not now. I am wanting to have more of a spiritual attitude…saying to myself..for now it is my life assignment to be here. I miss so much about CA and can’t understand my motivation for moving except to day, I thought my life would all come together, I am a change addict!
I am so grateful for being abstinent form my food addiction today and for having my feelings,
even if they are of grief.
Today, I will focus on what is in front of me to do. I will remember to breath in and breath out.
Thank you once again…
I feel such support…
Turtle

For example, you point out things in your life about your livelihood, relationships, the moves you have made, etc. All of these have a roll in your health. First and foremost, the past does not matter — all of that was just preparation to get you where you are now. Is it possible to accept that it was all perfect, just as it is? If moving into a blissful life is what you achieve, would all of what you’ve been through be worth the bliss you are soon to feel?

Is it possible to trust that you will heal your digestion? You will rid yourself of the systemic candida, you will have beautiful relationships and you will have the work you love? Is it possible to trust that you have the power to create this? You do! I can see that just by reading your words. It doesn’t matter how — doesn’t matter what steps or whether you know them — the first step is to believe, to trust…then allow (instead of control ing the outcome) it to come into your life. We will start working on this tomorrow night in our coaching group. The trick is, do you feel you deserve these things?

Our minds are powerful and they can stop us from getting what we want by being filled with negative thoughts that sabotage all of our dreams and desires. We’ve been taught that — to think negatively and think small. Now’s the time to think positively and think big. It’s a new habit that we will work to create. It takes trust and belief and practice. You are capable of this, I know it!

Regarding antifungals — not sure if you were taking all natural antifungals or something like Nystatin? Here’s my experience — I did not feel well on Nystatin, a prescription antifungal. When I tried this early in my recovery, I relapsed because it created nausea and digestive pain — my main trigger. My understanding of antifungals — both prescription and natural, is that they will bring on a faster healing crisis (die off). You’ll start to experience all kinds of symptoms, which can be very uncomfortable. Your ND seems right on to recommend colon cleansing — you might try a few colonics to help.

However, the BED — just the food — is a great way to slowly detox with less symptoms. You control how fast you cleanse. I didn’t start doing anti-yeast programs (like YeastMax) until about 5 months into my recovery. At that point, I had already experienced a lot of the die off at a slow pace, so it wasn’t bad. Donna Gates recommends waiting a year to do a parasite cleanse (a year after going on BED) — at least for her EcoClear parasite cleanse. I started one a bit earlier than that, but I had already gotten to a stable level of health with little symptoms of die-off before I started it.

You might consider doing as much BED foods as you can — or — at least adding cultured veggies to your diet at every meal as the only detox plan (along with enemas or colonics). This could help — see what your ND thinks about that — and save your antifungals until you’ve done this for awhile.

My understanding of sprouting is that it does take some of the starchiness out of foods (e.g., corn is a startch, but eaten raw, it is not), so it may help. You could always try it and see what you think. Leave it out of your diet for the first two weeks (if you’re starting BED) — for the first two weeks, consider just having all alkaline meals of veggies and light on healthy fats (blood type A tends to need lower amounts of healthy fats — you can experiement to see how you feel). Then add in the sprouted beans and see how you feel.

I know you’ve been eating eggs, so you may want to continue with that as well or stop for 2 weeks and then one at a time, add eggs, then sprouted raw beans. See how your body does on this.

If you’re not really ready to follow BED, wait until your body gets back to normal symptom-wise and then try the sprouted raw beans to see how it feels.

With love,
Heather

The BED also helps to decongest your liver — and it’s the liver that stores glucose (as glycogen). A detoxified liver does a better job at managing glucose, even converting protein to glucose, if necessary.

On top of that, our blood sugar levels depend on insulin, which regulates blood sugar. Insulin is being adversely impacted in today’s Standard American Diet (SAD) — especially for those of us with ED. The BED helps to get blood sugar levels normalized, which can help with insulin levels. Insulin helps with how glucose is transported in the body & stored in the liver, among other things. Here is a website that offers a pretty easy-to-understand explanation: http://home.howstuffworks.com/food2.htm.

I hope that helps! Above all, listen to your body — how it feels, including balanced desires for food rather than cravings, is a great indicator about what is happening in your life. As you look at body, mind and spirit — you can become better and better at understanding where the imbalance comes from and how to bring yourself back into balance. You have already proven to be so good at this!

With love,
Heather

11 days ago I woke up at two AM with nausea and I have spent the last 11 days with nausea, heart palpitations, headaches occasionally, then more recently, lower back pain.
The fatigue has gotten worse as time goes on. I think I am getting better to wake up again in the middle of the night and in the mornings with more nausea. I have talked a number of people who have had this “bug,” but no one has had it as intensily as I have. No one has had the heart palpitations that I have talked to. Before I came down with these symptoms, I had been taking grapeseed extract for about 3 weeks and I had just started to take a
antiparasite/anticandida herbal supplement. I had to stop taking all supplements. Everything
just made me have more or stronger nausea. I never actually threw up and if I don’t eat I feel worse. I can even stand herbal tea…my favorite thing to drink. I have also had periods of dizziness. I was using a flaxseed, glutamine combo for my chronic constipation. This made me even more ill and did nothing to help my problem… My initial sense is that I was
poisining myself. My ND thinks I have created a toxic situation and has urged me to do what I can to keep my bowels moving… like enemas, castor oil, and colonics….. I have been doing the enemas. My concern is that I will never get rid of my chronic systemic yeast,fungal and mold issues. I may be dealing with parasites, that I thought I got rid of… I was diagnosed with 3 a couple of years ago including h. pylori. My concern is that I will not heal my digestive issues.
I know you are not a medical doc…but, you are very wise and intuitive. I was on antifungal drugs seeing a well known allergist and immunologist. After 5 months I could not do it any more…the side effects both mental and physical were difficult for me. I would say the mental ones often get to me when it comes to taking drugs or herbs… the depression and the anxiety level goes up.
I want to heal more than anything, but, I don’t want to suffer. I have suffered enough
emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I don’t want to have to take anything to heal other than eat the right appropriate diet….the rest I would like to come from supporting myself
emotionally, physically(exercise) and spiritually. I have to believe there is a way.
I know that I suffer from not being in right livelihood for example..how much does that play a roll in my health. I know right now, I am grieving for all the moves I have made, the constant changes I have made, the lack of stability I have created…what roll does that play in my health. I have virtually been alone, without a partner for the last 9 years…without touch, love, tenderness, shared hopes and dreams, without intimacy…..how does that effect my health and well being. This in not to say, I have not had great close friends and wonderful encounters with others…this in not to say I have not grown or appreciated many gifts in my life…I certainly have….but, if I do not start living my truth…if I am afraid to share with my own self how starved I feel from the life I would like to be living..then I am wondering if I will recover…
I know this is really long and I know I had to write it for myself…you are my witness, I think we all need witnesses sometimes…. just like the women who stopped their bulimia and began to take actions toward their healing… there are actions I need to take.

On a different topic…I guess I was hoping sprouted beans would be OK because they are
sprouted so therefore they would be more like a veggie…is this not so…still to starchy mixed with protein?

Thank you Heather…
Turtle

Thanks.

Meg

I’m so happy to hear your sleep is getting better — and I can just imagine how healthy you look!

With love,
Heather

Addictions and ED are big contributors to complete adrenal exhaustion — yet we don’t notice it because the addiction creates a spike in adrenaline, giving us plenty of energy. Maybe even difficulty sleeping. In recovery — especially when you have a diet that is detoxing and repairing your body, you are starting to feel that adrenal fatigue and thankfully, listening to it.

What would it be like if YOU were more important than anything else (studies, etc.)? What would it be like if you could do for yourself first, like healing and getting plenty of sleep? One of the benefits may be healing your adrenals and having a natural source of energy, rather than one that needs spikes. It takes time to heal from adrenal fatigue — not forever, you will notice starting to feel better over time. Imagine using this time to give back to yourself and let your body repair itself from years of damaging habits.

See if perhaps you are able to get more done with less effort because of an energy source that comes from the inside out.

Apple cider vinegar gets the microflora going, which help get minerals, B vitamins and other nutrients to your adrenals. I haven’t heard anything about it making you sleepy, but it would make sense that your body is starting to do the work of repair — and with more microflora doing this work inside you, the more you want to rest.

Take good care of yourself as you cleanse mind and body — you deserve this time — you have already accomplished so much!

Regarding your sleep not being very good, that can be due to adrenal fatigue too, unless you have sleep apnea and are waking often in the night? Or some other reason. Do you know what is keeping you from sleeping deeply?

With love,
Heather

I imagine this beautiful soul of yours may be imprisoned by past conditioning, which happens to so many of us. What does she want most of all? How can she know she deserves?

You are so right about body and mind — candida and deeply embedded emotions are metaphors for one antoher, if you think about it. The candida is systemic, but can also embed into certain organs, notably the intestines. Emotions also find their way into body parts — negative emotions are most notably in the liver — your organ of detoxification. You are also right that it’s hard to know which came first. Your intuition tells you it was emotions. In other cases, babies can be born without a healthy inner ecosystem, leading to yeast overgrowth. So in either case, one can come first and the other then follows, unless the imbalance is corrected — and who among us knows how to do that well? It’s a journey to find the answers.

And perhaps that’s what our lives are about — to take this journey and find the answers. Just one question — how can we make it easier on ourselves? What is one thing you could do to lighten your load on this journey?

Turtle, the thing I love is that you felt so wonderful when you were giving life to another being — what would it be like if you gave birth to yourself? Brought this beautiful soul to the surface, letting her guide you?

Re: Rhonda, is it possible to surrender the fear and just see what show up? You may find that you shift just upon seeing her and it no longer matters what the suggestions are. Also, she is not the biggest proponent of meat in general, so while I’m not certain what will come of your specific needs, I have a feeling that meat won’t be a part of it.

Re: BED and legumes (lentils, etc.) – they are not in stage one because they are a protein and a starch, which do not combine well until the candida is cleared up. After stage one, you add certain legumes back into your diet and continue to add others over time.

I join you in acknowledging this great community of bloggers out here — sharing information and inspiration. You too inspire!

With love,
Heather

Thanks so much for answering my question so in depth. I can not express my appreciation to you enough.

Meg