Okay, I think life is testing the power of my belief. A few things happened that were a bit distressing, so I got to practice being present and trusting that everything would turn out alright.
Lemon #1 (yes, there is more than 1!)
I found out this morning that I was not registered for the I Can Do It conference.
In fact, I had registered online months ago, picked my sessions, etc. But I never looked for my e-mail confirmation and it appears there was a glitch in the system. On the phone with customer service this morning, I was relieved to find out that there were still tickets…but two of the sessions I really wanted to attend were sold out.
Normally, I would have been on top of stuff like that. But with my move from FL and all my travel lately, I just went with the flow. What triggered me to call Hay House was the woman sitting next to me on the plane yesterday — she had a conference folder.
That made me think something was up.
Bummer. So what did I do?
Well, you know when 3-year olds start to cry, but aren’t really committed to it because they figure their parents will just give them what they want anyway (no tears, just the fake crying thing)? Yeah, I started to do that for about a minute and stopped – I have to say that I did a pretty good impression of a 3-year old. My nephew, Sam, would have been proud.
Then I had to laugh at myself. I told myself that I must be meant to be hearing someone else’s message this weekend — and the cool thing is, I really believed it!
Except.
I had to go to the Venetian Hotel about a mile away to register…and it was still to early.
Lemon #2: Close Call
Louise Hay and I were playing it by ear to have lunch together today. She likes the Body Ecology Diet, so since I have a kitchen, the plan was for her to join me for lunch at my hotel.
Since there was a glitch in my registration, I walked over to the Venetian hotel just before 11:00 am with one of my friends.
Have you ever walked through the hotels in Las Vegas?
I am convinced that they were designed like a maze…you can’t REALLY get out and all paths lead back to the casino. The lighting makes it feel like perpetual night. More about that later…
Louise was supposed to finish some filming she was doing by around 12 noon and then she’d call me (most likely she was going to call my hotel room).
After being lost in the maze, it was 1:00 and I still hadn’t gotten back to my hotel.
I figured I’d missed her call and blown my chance to see her. A part of me was feeling upset and another part of me was telling the upset part that if things are meant to be, they’ll work out.
I walked into my hotel room. No message. Whew. About 10 minutes after I arrived back in my hotel, Louise called and we ended up having a wonderful lunch.
One more reason to trust. If it’s meant to be, it will be.
Life Lessons
So I must have come to Vegas not just for the I Can Do It conference, but to get a chance to practice my belief in the power of my thoughts. And to learn trust.
In his book, A New Earth, Eckhart Tolle talks about J. Krishnamurti, a great Indian philosopher and spiritual teacher who said that his secret was: “I don’t mind what happens.”
The whole idea here is that no matter what happens, there is no good and no bad. Just days before my recovery, it was this realization that helped me start to feel safe.
If I ALWAYS accept what is, no matter what, there will be no reason for fear.
This doesn’t mean that I won’t sometimes be sad if something bad happens, it just means that I no longer have to fear.
When I focused on that, I started to feel safe…no more “what if’s” or “I wish…”
Except that it can be easy to forget without awareness. And when I get busy, the first thing that tends to go is keeping my mind still and stead with meditation and awareness throughout my day.
I’m learning more than just what these great teachers are teaching here at the conference.
I’m getting to see proof that the Universal law of attraction works. That it always supports me, if I take care of myself and believe.
More soon on some key points from Wayne Dyer’s keynote…and other goodies from the conference!
by Emily Jolie
21 May 2007 at 01:48
So glad to hear things still worked out well! What a great lesson in trust! Nothing really does happen that isn’t meant to, does it. Gotta love it when you can see that and run with it, even in situations that initially appear stressful and frustrating.
with love,
Emily
by Heather
23 May 2007 at 11:29
Hi Em, Yes…it was just a beautiful time of sychronicity every time I focused on trust. More and more, I’m realizing what a waste of time stress is.
I went to a palm reader at the conference in Vegas…she was very gifted and after she was spot on with my friend’s life, I decided to go to her. She told me a lot of things…she said I am an old soul (as evidenced by the outrageous amount of lines on my palm) have a deep psychic ability and 3 minor psychic abilities. Then she said, you have to watch for WORRY. That was the only thing she had to say when she got to my health.
There are some lines on my palm extending from my thumb that are about worry. Wow…now all I have to do when I get stressed is look at my hand and remember that stress and worry are senseless.
Love,
Heather
by djuro
24 May 2007 at 18:34
Back in highschool, a friend wrote in my little memo-book:
“When life gives you lemons, you make a lemonade”
Similarly, my boyfriend (then a friend) wrote in:
“When luck seems to turn its back on you, just kick it in the ass!”
What it used to mean to me was, if you’re out of luck and miserable, enjoy your misery or deny/fight the feelings around it! Boy was I wrong!
What I learned since then is way better and goes something like this: don’t expect luck to make you happy, and don’t identify yourself with having it. Your lemonade can teach you as many things as your luck, and bring to states greater than sheer luck.
I think what I want to say is we shouldn’t rely on our plans much. Like Emily says, just trust.
It’s nice to hear how things turned out on your trip, Heather. And that you got some psychic abilities going on! I reccomend the latest Erin Pavlina’s blog entry about sharpening them:
Flexing Your Psychic Muscles
And yes, you always sound like an old soul! So wise, so caring.
by Heather
27 May 2007 at 22:14
Hi Djuro, thank you for sharing your perspecitives about lemons and not making plans. Funny you should say that. Louise Hay says she never has goals. She just goes where life takes her.
There is such a simplicity to that, isn’t there? So often we try to control the outcome, planning every step of our lives. I know that when I think of my vision, I am living with the flow of life. I think your comments about not planning fit that really nicely!
I looked at Erin’s blog and I will be back to visit it again, thanks for the recommendation! There are so many gifted and inspiring souls on the planet — you know that you are one of them too!
With love,
Heather