I am on my way to Saba, a tiny island in the Caribbean that I call home in the winter months. Right now, I am writing from my hotel room in Boston because I have a big goal (a scary one too!) that I’d like to ask you all to participate in with me.
Last week, I made a pact with a dear friend to relase (once and for all) “not good enough.”
You know not good enough…that belief that makes us feel unworthy and unloved. For me, it was “not good enough” that made me strive and stive, burning the candle at both ends. It’s what rocks me to my core when someone says something mean about me, giving me that feeling that this one thing is a statement about my whole life.
Not good enough blows things way out of proportion.
It can keep you awake at night, bring on anxiety or depression and wreak all sorts of havoc to your self-esteem. And yes, it is one of the particularly sticky contributors to eating disorders.
Today, I still know that there are cords of this feeling of not being good enough and I am ready to cut them once and for all!
But you know what? When my friend and I made a pact to release it, I asked for a date, a deadline of sorts. She said January 1st, 2008. Whoa. That scared me. Why?
There are 2 reasons I was scared to release not good enough by January 1:
- Because it seemed too big to release in such a short time.
- Because I didn’t know how.
Do you see what I did in that moment? My first response was one of fear. It is fear speaking when you doubt yourself. When you think, “yeah, but” or that you don’t know the answers.
So I went back to everything I’ve been learning over the past several years. For example, when you set an intention, it is not necessary that you know HOW to do it, just that you believe you can. In this instance, I clearly did not believe I could and I got caught up in the how. Once I realized that, I took a deep breath and accepted the deadline.
I still don’t know how I’m going to do it, but I have a strong desire to release this feeling of not being good enough and I am ready to trust that the how will show up.
And then I thought, what if we all do this together?
What if everyone reading this right now made the same commitment? In this way, our collective intention would have more power than just my friend and me. What do you think…are you ready?
What would it be like to suspend doubt and believe that it’s possible to release yourself from not being good enough?
What would your life be like?
As I make my day-long journey to Saba tomorrow, I am taking my intention into the skies and gathering up positive energy to share with everyone who is plagued by feelings of not being good enough. We all deserve to let this go and to love ourselves. A world of people who love themselves is a world at peace and harmony.
Infinite love and gratitude to all of you! I invite you to join me and I’d love to hear about your thoughts and experiences as we walk this path together!
P.S. For anyone who has called or e-mailed while I am in transit today and tomorrow, I hope to have phone and internet connectivity by Friday!