Many of you know that I attribute my first foray into recovery to a medical intuitive. Her name is Rhonda Lenair and she specializes in ending addictions. The first time I went to Rhonda, I was amazed to no longer crave the binge and purge cycle of bulimia. Rhonda also helped me learn to eat healthy foods that were right for my body, supplement with vitamins, minerals and herbs that my body needed and incorporate life-changing habits.
A Life Free of Addiction
It was through my experience with Rhonda that I learned how to live a life free of addiction. Based on her reading of my true essence, I was led to yoga, meditation, self-care and a new, rewarding career. I know that I am recovered today because of my experience with Rhonda. She gave me a clean slate, so that I could build my life around what would truly support my health.
If you’ve been following my story, you also know that after seeing Rhonda my subsequent 1.5 years of being bulimia free — I started to have relapses. Rhonda helped me over them each time. And each time, I learned this feeling of transcending the eating disorder. It almost felt like she trained my mind, so that I knew where that place of transcendence was. Eventually, I found that I could take myslef there — because I knew what it felt like. It was a peaceful, joyful, grateful place.
Every Experience Is Perfect
I now know that the relapses were perfect — because they served to show me where I was going wrong in my life. Rhonda had suggested that I leave my job and I was still hanging on to it (I still had financial fears and my job represented safety). When my job started to get really stressful and all of what I disliked most started to be shown to me, I relapsed. I also relapsed when I left my job — because I was facing my fears of safety and security. I was facing my fears of following my own voice.
It was exactly when I decided to follow my own voice (intuition) that I started to finally heal. Part of my intuition said that once and for all, I had to break free from fear and eat in a way that would allow me to heal my digestive pain. I came up with a plan that seemed to come from my heart and realized this plan was exactly what was in The Body Ecology Diet, by Donna Gates. Interestingly, much of this was similar to what Rhonda had “read” in my system, with a few differences. The fact that I had 4 years of practice (after seeing Rhonda) with many of the foods in The Body Ecology Diet helped make the transition easier.
Gratitude
Once my digestive pain stopped, my mind became free — and I had the same feeling of shifting that I got from seeing Rhonda. I realized that the training she gave me over the four years of my initial recovery journey was invaluable. To know this place of healing, of moving beyond disordered eating and claiming my true essence has been an incredible joy.
I am truly grateful to Rhonda Lenair and Donna Gates — Rhonda helped give me a clean slate and was a catalyst to my spiritual unfolding. Donna gave me a roadmap and knowledge for freeing my body, so I could free my spirit. My heart is full when I think of how lucky it is that I could walk the path with these amazing women.
Free Teleclasses
Rhonda is offering free teleclasses, which I highly recommend. The next teleclass is on May 10, 2006. You can also listen to previous teleclasses, which you’ll find listed on her website. When you listen to Rhonda, listen with your heart. She speaks from a place that while we may not always understand intellectually, we know to be true in our hearts. Sometimes, just being present with the words is enough to allow a shift.
by michelle
10 May 2006 at 17:05
Hello,
I found out about your site, on the curezone. I do need help, I am bulimic and it is killing me. I’ve done all to stop it, all that has happened is gaining more weight. I am a pianist and I was becoming a singer, however, vomitting is getting away my voice. I live in Paris except for the summer holidays when I go to Canada. Is it possible to participate in your group? I am a student and cannot afford expensive cures in Paris. Please do help me
by Heather
10 May 2006 at 17:44
Hi Michelle, I’m glad you wrote in. Please fill out the application for the group — it’s in the “free coaching group” link in the upper right of the blog. I can feel what you are saying — and what I want to say is — is it possible to be gentle with yourself right now? To accept where you are right now? See if you can allow the fear to leave your mind and body, just for awhile. See how that feels. Give yourself 5, 10, 15 minutes at first — maybe more over time — of just feeling this acceptance of where you are right at this moment. Let yourself know that everything will be okay — and trust it.
This may sound oversimple, but it trains your mind to start going to a place of calm that is healing. Most of the time, we don’t know how to do this and stay locked in fear. Try it for a week and see what happens.
I look forward to getting your application!
With love,
Heather
by michelle
13 May 2006 at 05:11
Dear Heather,
Thanks for writing me back. I will fill in the application and get it back to you asap. I am going out to sing at a choir now, but I have badly damaged my vocal chords by vomitting. I try to understand and do what you are telling, to love myself as i am, however, it is so difficult. I hate every thing about my body and many things about my soul. I try to do that. I thank you again and tell you that I do want so much to get well. I want to have my music back, my piano back.
Peace,
Michelle
by Heather
18 May 2006 at 07:11
Hi Michelle, Bravo to you for taking the first steps! Consider this, instead of feeling fear about your vocal chords and your music, focus your love of music back onto your body. Feel your love of music in your body — breathe it in. Let this feeling fill you every day…just start there. Perhaps your love of music will allow you to move beyond disordered eating — although I’ve found it never worked if I was afraid I’d lose something. It only worked when I just focued on a calm, loving, peaceful place.
That feeling you get when you are playing the piano, when you are singing — just feel that feeling — and take some of that love for yourself.
With love,
Heather